it is just so funny how somethings NEVER change...although, they fool you for a little while and you think they're changing but, right when it has you fooled, the truth is revealed. thats okay, i can honestly say that i don't give a shit anymore..i guess once more was all i needed..there is one thing that will change, and thats me..its gna be fun..

--deena

woo!!! i'm havin fun...i'm at uk visiting my amyrussell...loads of fun! its amazing how much sugar one can consume in like..an hour...lol...i love aims to death!!! i miss her...we're so much fun..not much goin on...work...as always...gettin ready for school in may and meg-a-han's wedding in july! she's gna tie her knot! lol...

love much,

--deena

I have great new news for everyone!! are you excited?? lol...i'm in love...with the most wonderful, beautiful thing on this earth..an '06 Hyundai Tiburon..haha, i'm gna have one..you just wait...by the end of the year hopefully...but yes, i'm in love..no turning back now..*sigh*...

have a wonderful day xanga...

i love you...

--deena

Currently Listening Chapter V By Staind right here waiting see related

well, i think for once i'm going to apologize to myself..i'm sorry that i let it get this far..i'm sorry i fooled you, i'm sorry i didn't see it coming, i'm sorry i didn't do everything i wanted to, i'm sorry i didn't say the things i wanted to say, i'm sorry i didn't listen...until its all said and done, i won't be able to apologize to myself completely..until then i won't know what all it is that i'm sorry for..i guess we'll see how it goes..but most of all, i'm sorry for doing this to you too, i drug you down with me and i think thats how i got here..

merry christmas xanga..

--deena

Currently Listening Seventeen Days By 3 Doors Down Here By Me see related

well, what do you know...here i am again..i'm doing laundry so i thought i'd get on here and be as nosy as possible..which hasn't really worked, i haven't learned anything new..

not too much has been going on in the last 5 days or so..i got offered 60 bucks for an hour massage at work the other night by one of our construction workers..haha i should have done it..but it seems as if my conscience wants to uphold my sweet, innocent behavior..my car made its maiden voyage to lexington yesterday for meghan's birthday deal..it was pretty cool..we saw some guys breaking it down for us in traffic and some cross dressing frat guys downtown..we went to a haunted house deal..it kinda sucked..haunted hollow is pretty much better..lol...i only got kinda freaked out once by the girl from the ring but, it wasn't too scary..except for meghan, she didn't see anything at all from it! but thats okay..we still love her..

i finally carved a pumpkin today..silly seeing as tomorrow is halloween..i'm going to hand out candy w/beca at the bed and breakfast tomorrow night so anyone who's bored can come see us!

i've been thinking about school lately...i'm not too sure i wana go to scc anymore..i think i just wana go somewhere but i still don't know if i'm ready..i've been concidering valdosta state again..its just so beautiful down there..and i'd love to see uncle harris, aunt liz and everyone down there more..who knows..i certainly don't..maybe i'll just go on to richmond..i'm not very good at decision making..

this is all for now, goodnight, i love you!

--deena